Busan

So, it has been ages since I have posted on this blog. It started out as Asian Adventures to keep everyone updated on the excitement of Korea. It turned out to be everyday life for me so I stopped posting.

I will say that never in a million years would I have thought I would end up in Korea. Yet, here I am. It is almost one in the morning here and what has driven me to write so late is the fact that yet again, I am having difficulty sleeping. Since I have last written it has been a bit of a whirlwind. My dearest uncle has passed, along with my wonderful cousin Nancy, and my beloved friend Kijafa. All deaths have affected my family greatly and has really left an impact on my life. Being over here and having had to deal with that has been difficult. I feel that I have lost touch with friends and that is not my intention. I love and miss everyone. All the deaths of those close to me have left me on shakey ground with my faith.

I love Korea but I must admit that right now I feel rather lonely. I don't even know how to shake myself out of it. Sometimes I have such an immense sadness and i don't know how to make it right. These things take time I realize...I just hate the feeling. I have thrown myself into exercising...it seems to be the one thing I can control.

Also, since the last I wrote, I have moved to a new city...its the second largest next to Seoul. I now live in Busan South Korea a ten minute bike ride from the beach. The beach is lovely. I look forward to just riding my bike down there and sitting and listening to the ocean. I will admit, when I was in college I didn't take advantage of the beach! In the beginning I hated it here. I wanted nothing more than to stay in Seoul and be with my friends. Now, I think of it as a fresh start maybe?? I am still convincing myself of that, but it is good. I have met some pretty wonderful people. Thank God for my new friend Shannon here as she saves me from becoming a hermit. I know this is hard for you all to believe because you know I am talkative and sociable, but seriously...I just don't have the energy or desire to search for a new 'family' in Korea.

Also, since I have been here some pretty wonderful things have happened for my friends back home. Michelle got married, Nicki got pregnant, Erika had her second child, Stacy is getting married, Rebecca had a baby, and Allison had a baby! So many wonderful things!! So on days when I am feeling blue I just like to think of all of the GOOD news that is happening in peoples lives.

I often think of coming home. I think maybe I am a bit scared to do so. Its a scary thing! I don't want to stay in Korea forever, but I know things at home have changed SO much. We are all living our lives...and some of our lives just take on different paths. Maybe I am a bit nervous to be thrown into all of your paths...although I do look forward to being some place where I don't have to mime the things that I need or want. However, I will miss being a celebrity when I come home. Here I am very special! They see me walking down the street and you would think I was Beyonce! If only I had Beyonce money :) Anyhow, until next time...this I hope will help me better to sleep! love you all